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I’ve now realized that just because you’re a writer, they won’t believe a word you say, even if it is true. It maddens me how you, who I didn’t even know existed some moments ago, could inflict such tranquil, exquisite, subliminal pain. And if apart, the knowledge of how close we had come; is going to stay with me forever, and haunt and clobber and madden again, and there’s nothing you can do about any of that. That’s what makes it so scary, that this one would always hurt; this particular one.