It disturbs me that I, am writing this hurriedly, secretly, guiltily
Glancing intermittently at the bathroom door
Inside; he's brushing his teeth
He's coming back
More later
False Alarm
It disturbs me that after a couple of months,
I'm suddenly looking forward to sleeping with him
Sleeping with him while thinking about
Him
It disturbs me that today, amidst the night music and the Italian food,
For a split second I felt that I could have given up everything for Andrew
Anir, Buchkun, the house, the jewelry, the bank accounts; everything
Everything that my life has amounted to so far
For someone I've seen for the first time today
Of course, that feeling lasted only an instant
But the fact that I could be capable of such thoughts
Horrifies me
It disturbs me that I, a mother of two, was not annoyed
When being touched by someone other than my husband
Slutty as this sounds
It is all true
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